*Sigh*

Why is it that life can be so difficult sometimes? Why can't we be able to be highly aware of the choices that we make and how they are affecting others? Why is it so easy to give others good advice but then so difficult to take our own advice? Why is it that some days I feel that this uphill battle will never end? When does hope return and doubt and despair depart? I know I am trying my best to stay true to my beliefs and do what I feel to be right....but it seems I am still making mistakes, still hurting others, still making myself hurt... When do I find that courage again? I know it was there at one point....that peace had prevailed....but it seems that the smallest things cause the greatest upheavals...